Sooo. My measurements have gotten whacky. Being on prednisone and being in and out of the hospital and losing weight. Yeah, it's been wild. But my waist and whatnot has gotten smaller. My hips stayed the same, stomach flatter. But my already huge tits have gotten bigger. And those who know what I look like, yeah. We already know my boobs are huge. But I retook measurements for my Super Sailor Uranus costume?

53 inches for the chest. Yukke will like em. As quoted by Janie and a few others. XD; I mean she has the biggest rack of all the senshi so hey. I haven't cosplayed her in four years. This is gonna be fun. And you know there are newb SM cosplayers and elitistesque ones like me. I used to be friends with hardcore Sailor Moon cosplayers but moved away from it and more into JROCK and yaoi cosplay so I lost touch. But at Ota, the bad and the really good come out. And you know, there aren't that many Haruka cosplayers. You go on ebay to look for costume or accessory stuff and you never see things for her. People cosplay Michiru but not many cosplay the dyke, as it were.

But yeah. Paid for Otakon, still need to get the hotel situation figured out. And Amber's mom is being gay and saying she can't go. yeah well, I'll fix that. Damnit Amber you are going. I wish you could cosplay Sailor Mercury, and JenJen you could cosplay a senshi too and we'd be hot. But we need our MUCC group. Jen you should cosplay Tatsurou just in case Amber can't come but ya know you should do it anyway because it would be hot. Bou and Tatchan. ;D

But yeah as it stands.

Sam, Brian, and I are carpooling in my car to Otakon. Leaving on Thursday afternoon since Sam has to work I think. So we have plenty of time to drive there. And more or less be able to take our time a little and maybe stop at a hotel or something on the way. I dunno. Anyone remember how long the drive is from Nashville to Baltimore? I haven't gone in two years. But I know I left early early Friday to get there on time. But if Amber can go which I'll make sure she does, Amber will be carpooling as well.

And then JenJen will meet us at Ota. So that's five people sharing a room. And we're not staying at the main hotel or overflow hotels because yeah. 200 dollars a night between five people? Nuh uh. But as usual, Im the one who has to figure out the hotel situation. I thought it was being taken care of,, but yeah. Once again I'm left to figure shit out. But we'll stay somewhere in Baltimore. And everyone needs to make sure they're registered.

Cosplaying Rojiura PV Yukke, aaaaaand Super Sailor Uranus! So get ready for sexy pictures!

My old costume, is a little too tight so it's being remade. It's been suggested I take sexy pictures. Oh and I need to remake Uranus's sword. See, in the manga art there's several different ones. The short sword like in the anime. The fencer sword where she's leaning against the sports car. And the regular looking sword. Well, my short anime style sword is broke so I'm going to remake it for the cosplay. But yeah. Once the costume is done, I'm gonna take the pics like the anime pic where she's biting the sword and her arms are crossed. Going to do that. If my either friends can cosplay senshi, or if people wanna pose with me because oh trust me they will. I mean come on. How many people think I look like Haruka when my hair is cut and blonde? And I look like Yukke too. I mean it's been said I'm the real life HaruHaru. But I'm gonna take some hot poses, and sexy poses. And poses showing some white panties. And it's been suggested I masturbate with her power stick but no. No, I am not doing that. Who would take the picture?
----shut up stephanie and jenjen. LOL

And yeah Heather wouldn't let anyone see me like that. She may be the uke but she'll go crazy Michi. But I'm going to take some sexy poses and facial expressions, and cup my big breasts and whatnot since hey. Ruka has a nice rack.

But today I went into town. Got my TB test checked. Negative and was shown how to take my Enbrel shots. How to give myself the shot. For my arthritis. Once a week shot. so I know how to give it now, so I can do it at home. And then went to Walmart and get this mom buys all this lunchmeat and food. And I went what's all this for?

My fucking cunt aunt Carol and Sean are here. My friends know who they are. and I hate them. I fucking hate Carol and everyone who has ever met her hates her. Steph, Bria, Heather and people who have just heard about the shit and read the shit I've wrote about. She didn't want to tell me. And they were at the house when we got back. I was so fucking pissed off. Here for the holiday. Last time they came for a holiday they stayed six months so yeah. HELL FUCKING NO.

But what I did? I said I can't stay in a house with them and be sober. So we went to a liquor store. And it wasn't Mulligans so it was more expensive but. I bought fifty bucks of booze. Bottle of sake, bottle of plum wine. Biggest bottles of DeKuyper's Pucker I could find. Bought three. Two apple, and a tropical mix one. And I have Smirnoff's in the fridge and pain killers.. in which alcohol intensifies this effect. Ask Steph. I'M A HAPPY DRUNK! So yeah. I'm going to be shitfaced while they are here.

I'm so tired. But yeah, I go through my icon making phases. I made anime icons and yaoi icons, took a break. Then went to movies, then jmusic.. jrock, kpop, back to movies and random things. And yeah. I saved a shitload of pics on my new laptop from Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon. I lost my disc that had my HUGE collection of manga and anime and art pics. It was like 3GB. But on this comp for iconage I saved a shitload of senshi pics, some group and pair pics, villain and extra char pics oh and all the materials collection and all of the manga artbooks. Oh and I saved a shitload of black and white manga pics. I love colorized manga icons. I love dark_branwen's work. She does lots of Dark Kingdom and PGSM stuff. Lotsa Kunzie and Jadie. Heehee. But yeah. I'm going on an anime icon spree. A BSSM spree. Staring with DK, Ruka, Michi, and some other senshi. And going to expand on it. Work on those for a while. I was always into Sailor Moon, but I go through these phases where I go crazy for things for awhile. Like, jrock phases,kpop phases, anime phases, movie phases. Like my icons. And I have always loved BSSM. But Heather has got me back into it hardcore. I was getting into it before but yeah. Thanks to her, she's pushed me back into the world. And I'm sure that once these icons get out there, people will take them and drag me into the world. I remember RPing on LJ and whatnot. The drama. I remember ssfseiyakou, but I doubt she remembers me. Yeah, I want to get known in the BSSM world again. I'm known in the jrock world. Cosplay world. I hate elitism, but I tend to act that way sometimes.

What makes me laugh, is some of Heather's friends and their jealousy of me. Particularly one person whose LJ and name will remain a secret. Some of you know though. She only talked to me a few times a few years ago. And got jealous because Heather and I were RPing Haruka and Michiru. And for some reason she thinks she's the only person who has the right to RP Haruka. That's like that dumbass girl Bria knows that thinks she's the only person who can RP Miyavi. You can RP whoever you want man. No one claims a certain character. Some people are better than others but you can RP anyone. But ever since then, she just never liked me. It's called jealousy. She thinks she's the only Ruka in the world. And I wanna go. SORRY THAT POSITION HAS BEEN FILLED. And you know, she's with someone. And it's like she's crushing on Heather too? And we know my insane jealousy. My dating life sucks in general. I'd go on one or two dates. Hell you all know. But with Heather it's different. Like Haruka would kick anyone's ass if someone nagged her but if it's Michi it's different. I dunno. Heather makes me a different, happy person. And I treat her differently than everyone else. But I am overprotective. I don't like people hurting her and this girl just gets on my nerves. And even though I don't talk to her or haven't heard her talk shit? Just the thought of this girl being so ridiculously shallow and jealous ticks me off. Like that Miyavi RP'er who actually believed she knew Meevers personally or whatever. How pathetic and naive. Believing things people say online about that kinda stuff. People are stupid, and I hate highschool esque drama. That's why I'm not friends with Atreyu anymore. And I don't have a lot of friend in Clarksville. I've weeded out the fake friends from the real ones. I have friends all over the US, that I can't see everyday but talk to online. I see them at cons and on visits. My mom sits there, insults me and says I have no friends. I just am a dick. I'd rather have a few close friends than random acquaintances, sorry. And people here suck. I'm friends with people in Nashville which btw amber we need to hang.

and people have said i'm an asshole NO FUCKING DUH. I'VE SAID IT A THOUSAND TIMES. But yeah I've been told I as egotistical because of me saying I was the number one MUCC fan. Rofl. Dude, before I even stated it. I said I was egotistical and I didn't care. I have the type of personality.. you either like me or you hate me. I have a strong and forward personality. Some people can take it, some people are pussies and cant. I don't really care.

But Heather doesn't think I'm an asshole. I'm not to her. I'm a sweetheart. I sing to her, I cuddle and say things to her, I open up to her, I'm a different person people don't see besides her. Steph laughs at me, says we're so cute. And that I'm sappy being all LOOOOVE YOU and the petnames and all. But you know, Heather makes me feel good. She makes me feel wanted and appreciated. She is the only person I ever really and truly loved and have loved for years and years. And she's mine. So, people can take their jealousy and obnoxious attitudes and shove it. I'm protective.

BTW. IM GETTING A NEW LJ LAYOUT! I haven't made icons in such a long time. I just made the ones of Heather's art. But yeah if you look back post wise it's been a while. I mean when you've been in and out of the hospital and been sick at home you don't want to make icons or sew or anything. You just wanna relax. But yeah. dark_branwen is one of my fave icon artists and she's gonna custom make me a Haruka layout. I had been working on one but gave up. I wanna make some more userinfo banners and stuff. But I'mma make her some special icons just for her.

I imagine I'll get more art from Heather so I'll make more icons from her stuff too. Just to show off, and only certain people can use. I need to upload the icon JenJen made me. IT'S SO GREAT! klavierbarrette I love her iconage art. Very pretty. She's working more on split typed icons like I do and they rock. Oh and if you have any special senshi requests lemme know.

BTW. Goes for anyone. Anyone who wants a custom made Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon icon. Name the pairing or senshi or villain, or person and I'll try to get around to making one. Yes yes, Michiru for you Heather.


I have such a high pitched voice normally. But I think I don't. But on the phone I do. It's so girly and not me. But I can voice act. I wish I could get into voice acting. Ask Heather, Steph, Amber. I mean I can scream jrockness, sound like the female Tatsurou. But I can change my voice and sound like each of the senshi. Especially Haruka. I sing Kaze ni Naritai, and our voices blend together you can't tell who is who. I sound just like her when I fix and think about my voice. Hehe, which adds to the ma being Ruka. Mou, I like Sera Myu, but I dun like the costumes. I like the musicals just. Yeah. I dun wanna cosplay. But Heather is gonna do Jupiter in a group. And it's gonna be awesome. Just cuz i dun like the costumes doesnt mean she's not gonna ROCK. ;D

I look like Yukke, but. I ACT LIKE TATSUROU!
Omg need more FFVII love. I still wanna cosplay Rufus but hmmm. I'll have to think.

whoo long post. Love you, my baby Heather.
And love everyone else too! Mrrrrow.


Man I wish I could do Born Zero since it's done but. I can't get the hair so gonna hold off.