so yeah.

i dont know what else to put here, but besides the fact that.. i can feel my uteran walls ripping and PMSness blows.


and yeah. i feel bad about.. everything?
i'm an asshole, and we all know that.
i make jokes when i get uncomfortable.
i make jokes to make people like me.
i make jokes when i dont know what else to say.
i make jokes.. to make mysef feel better.
i make jokes to make others feel better.


but yeah. i'm like. gonna continue crying now.

ghost world is a good movie. and so is pleasantville.
being alone at night is teh suck.
steve buschemi is a great actor.
i want cookies and cream ice cream but i only have cookie dough.
i want jenjen to live near me.
i want stephanie back in clarksville.
i want bria to live near me.
i want eric back in the united states.
i want to see heather again.
i wish my friends weren't so spread out.
i want more of a life. spring break is here.
i want to take all my friends and get the hell out of here.
i want to drop out of college.

i like to speak in song lyrics and riddles.
i like the picture stephanie drew of tatsurou.
i like tatchan's kyo charcoal.


another spring break. but nowhere to go. last year? i was ill.. year before or whatever broken leg.
stephanie is supposed to spend the night on sunday i think.
and tatchan is gonna try and spend the night sometime this weekend.
i need to give them both more discs, cds.

haha roseanne episode is funny. yoma and the eyeball breathing and yeah.

drawing burlesque miyavi is hard. i keep messing up his thighs.
sigh. i have no energy.
maybe all this emotion and bullshit is from me being on my period.
but im going to get some ice cream and get fatter so.

i wish dad was still around.
no one has to comment or even read this. wellbutrin and all these drugs being pumped into me?
having a period, bleeding like a stuck fucking pig sucks.